Its already well into the month. Okay maybe not so much into it, but with the way time is flying it might as well be the 25th of March tomorrow.
The past few months have been hectic, emotional and even draining as it were. I will have attended two funerals by Friday and the nervous break down I had the other day is just an added bonus . I was in a funk for about a week too, it has just been too much. My previous post just reeks of all that “low vibe”.
I am constantly in panic mode about everything. The future mostly, it is seriously starting to bug me about how uncertain it is. Which is so dumb because , uuum, it IS the future, we are not meant to know about it now.
We are always told to focus on the present, to live for today and make the most of TODAY but, is it wrong to feel horrible that you don’t know what tomorrow holds? To let it drive you to such a state?
I guess I have learned that I am the type of person that likes to have everything work out in a certain way and I like to be in control. Because obviously, not being in control drives me insane at times.
Do you feel this way sometimes? Or am I just talking nonsense? Nothing you have ever experienced?
If you have though, this is just to tell you that it is not just you. Also, we are never EVER going to be in control of the future. We might try to make way for things to work in a specific way and prepare for the future, but we will never be able to be in control. So Cliche…I’m sure you have heard this from so many different people…but I guess then this is a message to self? You can stop reading now to be honest, I am not saying anything new.
You are still reading? I really hoped you would be. You know…read on and see what this girl is talking about?Thank you.
So anyway for more of my cliches.
Live. Live for today. For the Present. Funny that I am telling you this and yet I barely adhere to those words. But that was yesterday and the weeks that have passed,,, Today came about though and I promised to heed those words. I was filled with a whole new energy.
I am ready to be content with not knowing the future and the things that I cannot control and making the most out of what I have.
I’m finally out of the funk that I have been in…which is great news. Anyone I talked to lately knows I was at a serious low. I sort of know now, why I was in that state. Why i was somewhat depressed. ( Keyword SOMEWHAT, I am not depressed. Too blessed to be depressed bruh 🙂 ) It is time to start making changes because that is not a state that I want to be in anymore.
p.s. Yesterday’s post was written early last week, just in case you are wondering how quick I went in and out of that “Funk” Lol
Otherwise….Wishing you beautiful souls a Happy New Month. May you make the most out of today and all the very best with tomorrow.
Love and Love,