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You can no longer stand conversations with people who seem to have their brain on backwards. Conversations about the rave that was two weeks ago make you yawn worse than a hunger yawn. You are instantly disinterested the minute the conversation does not spark mental activity in your brain.

You discover the word sapiosexual and you cannot understand where it has been all your life. It all of a sudden puts your life into perspective. You “Amen” and “Truth” to all Instagram quotes that have sapiosexual written in them! You spend an hour liking all quotes that involve mental stimulation and relationships that advocate for this . You either think or type “Relationship goals” to that picture of Bey and Jay with the “Be a Boss, Date a Boss, Build an empire ” caption.

Or just any picture with the message, like this one Boss

You’re all about the hustle and the grind and you’re all of a sudden hell bent on making it. Your mind never goes to sleep these days, you’re forever strategizing on how you are going to afford a Tom Ford and Louboutin lifestyle because you love ” the expensive  finer things in life.

You know what you want in life ,exactly how you want it and you probably have a laid out plan on how you are going to achieve it. You change your crowd and only flock with those with a similar vision. You constantly want to challenge yourself  just to see how far you can stretch. To see your potential.

Every once in a while you feel the need to go off the grid. You quit Instagram, Snapchat and even WhatsApp just for a while. To give yourself breathing space, more than that, you can’t handle the whole world keeping tabs on you all the time. You need a little privacy and therefore you go from uploading three Instagram pictures a day, each day ,every week to ONE picture for a few weeks? Months maybe? That is if you’re not ThisIsEss and you need to make that money! Ahh I admire her passion. Anywaaay….

You are comfortable with yourself. Your own company doesn’t bother you anymore. Something about always caring what the others think when you’re younger. Seeking validation in the wrong places. You can now go to Mama’s (Restaurant in Nairobi) on your own, with a good book or just a notepad and a pen to sit with your thoughts and enjoy hanging with YOU! Yourself.

You have never been more self confident. I don’t know about you guys but I always had (Still do, but I’m trying to make a point here, cut me some slack 🙂 ) people around me such that when I was alone I felt awkward. I didn’t know what to do with my time. I was always jealous of the people who could sit at a corner by themselves and be comfortable. I am one of these people now and no, we are not loners. Sometimes you just need YOU time, time for you to reflect, plan, congratulate,motivate and even scold YOURSELF. You time 🙂

You are grown now, you feel it and you only feel the need to do things and associate with people who will enable you to achieve your goals, one way or another.

I am probably sounding way too old now but don’t get me wrong, just because I feel this way doesn’t mean I don’t enjoy life anymore. Doesn’t mean I don’t have a social life any more, only that I don’t waste my time on things that do not grow me anymore. I don’t associate with people that break me constantly almost like they were being paid to do so. I don’t sweat the small stuff anymore. I am always working towards a vision with a plan of action. No more aimless living. And is it weird that the urge to have a beautiful baby is much stronger,lol, maybe I need a boyfriend first and a wedding. (Dad, quickly advance to the next paragraph, lol)

There are many more things I could write about describing how I think I have come of age but unfortunately the words are just not flowing any more.

Let us just say that I like this stage of life that I am at right now, we all are probably here now (those of us who are my age mates of course )…I would like to think so. Are you enjoying it?I know I am. There is just something about feeling 22 and to top it all off, I decided to get a whole new look this month just to reflect the change I have gone through and I love it. It is a reminder of my progress and growth. One that currently makes me feel like I can conquer the world, who knew the power of a makeover?

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Well anyway, I think I am going to have a mental block real soon. So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY to all May babies. I hope you enjoy / enjoyed your days to the full and you received all the blessings that you deserve and that this new year is filled with all those things that you have been praying for. May all your dreams and wishes come true. May God bless you all.

P.S. I recently read a blog post from the “Heels, Heart and Heroine ” blog and learned that it is Lupus Awareness Month. Apart from what I read on the blog I do not know much about the disease but I can tell you that its not doing any better than Cancer in my books. Be sure to look it up and create awareness. I shall re blog the post on here so that those of you have not had the opportunity to read it, may do so.

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Love and Love

B

xx

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