It hit me.
It hits me.
It hits me, I never take action.
It literally hit me this time and I couldn’t ignore it.
It was about that time that I practised what I preached.
Preach wine and drink wine.Fine wine.
Because It is meant to be fine. Just fine. Like fine wine.
It will be now though and I am ecstatic!
I finally took a leap of faith. I finally let go….or rather I was pushed off the edge and I did not hold on.
It was time to take the risk. It is what life is about anyway….risk taking. Right?
I finally came to terms with the fact that to fully let go, I had to fill up all the nooks and crannies. It is very easy to tell ourselves that we have let go of something just by the mere fact that we don’t associate ourselves with it any more or just because we spend less energy on it than we did before. This is essentially the first step but not the last.
Things or people we let go of have surrounding factors to them and these need to be rid of as well. We pick up so many other tiny things along the way but when we get rid of the rotten cake in our hands we forget to dust off the crumbs from our palms. However, it may just be where the answer lies. Dusting off the crumbs and using water to properly cleanse our hands.
I have been letting go for so long but I never really let go because I wanted to hold on to the secondary factors. I was convinced that I could use them as motivation to remind me where I should never go back but turns out I was looking at it from the wrong angle the whole time. Yes , I felt like I just had an epiphany!
But it hit me and I realized that dusting off the crumbs needed to be done and so it was AND let me tell you the minute I did ,it was like everything was right in the world again. The grudge, the pain, the thoughts, the painful memories, THE CRUMBS I had been holding on to for so long were rid of me and the weight on my shoulders was adjusted. It was now how it was meant to be. How it always was meant to be.
I felt like I had just discovered electricity coupled with a number of other inventions.
How life plays you sometimes ,but how it appreciates you after when you figure out the game and the two of you pound on it because you’re finally on the same page. Yes, I just personified Life. It seemed fitting.
Its a whole other life when you are not stressing out every other second. When you are not confined by others but mostly by yourself. It is so different. The number of sunny days I have had on rainy days cannot be counted. Life is so good.
I kept saying I had moved on, I really had not, this time though, I really have and It is quite refreshing I must say.
I guess what I am saying with this post, is that, you need to be fully committed to whatever it is you’re putting in the past, letting go of or tucking away, never to be revisited!
You need to deal with the issue and all its sisters, brothers and cousins! Do not leave any stone unturned. Holding on to one small matter means you are not ready to be through, but my dear when you are, let go of it ALL!
No back ups, no maybe’s , no ” Will come handy in the future” ..None of that! Just let it go….you never know what door you are keeping shut from your life by keeping this one open!
You have everything you need to be just fine! So go ahead. Unchain yourself from the pain.Allow the light and life to flow…let it come through in its entirety. All you have to do is take that step!
All the best! You got this!
Love and Love