Hey guys, I know you have been waiting for this. You told me that you usually wait for this. I am sorry that I am late with this, but I have just been going through a lot.
I can’t explain it.
Something within me.
Something that is not right.
January was amazing, I was on a high, I was accomplishing, I was delivering, I was winning, I was living.
and then February came.
I thought I would be on the same high, I could almost bet on it. Things were going so well anyway.
See I have been having one of those months where nothing is going right and I am on the brink of a nervous and emotional break down.
The reading has reduced, the prayers have declined, motivation is at zero and exhaustion at 100! Ask me why though and I cannot put my finger on it.
My life is currently seeming blurry, shades of grey with unidentified feelings. My facial expressions in between a frown and smile. I just cannot figure it out.
I was recently reminded that this period in my life will probably one of the hardest with the highest number of “I can’t” moments because of just how tough everything will be. However, with that in mind, this will also be the time that I am molded for the better if I so wish.
That taking this moment in stride will define who I am.
That the challenge to my character will only result in growth,
So if you, like me, have had one of those trying months. One of those like mine where even writing this blog post is a task that I have debated for weeks on end just because I couldn’t be bothered, no will power or strength to pen my thoughts…If you have had one of those, stay comforted.
Stay knowing that you are not alone in the struggles of daily life. That the only trajectory from here is UP, that you are only going through this time so that you can be better for the next. You got this! You just need to believe it!
I know we are 14 days in, buuuut, happy new month! Enjoy your MARCH!
P.s. I will make a point to do a taking stock post by the end of this week. I know it will be super late, but you know, better late than…
Love and Love,