As per usual.It probably has become monotonous now. I shall find something new for next year! But for now…LEGOOO! 🙂

I have been making plans to throw down for my family for a while now, and now that I have time on my hands, it is a PLAAAN!

Any ideas on what I should cook for them? I am so excited though, every time I get to cook for them makes me feel like I am filling in mum’s shoes! It feels like home again.

I am still drinking water on a daily! My skin is singing praises!

I am currently reading all things finance and excel! I really miss the days I had time for novels…I can’t wait for next year to get more reading in.

I really want to see the results of all these gym workouts! YAAS, I finally joined the gym and I LOVE it! #Newbodycomingsoon

Playing JB Purpose! Call me a #Belieber.

Wasting no time to get some sleep in! I was up at 6am this morning out of the house running errands, back by 11…slept from 11am to 4pm….see my life? #Beautysleep bruh!

Wishing I was playing in the snow in Sweden with my mum, waiting to usher in a white Christmas! She probably would be watching me though…the cold was not her buddy!

Enjoying the free time I have to REST! I feel like I started the year on my feet and I didn’t get two minutes to catch a breath, so I am definitely enjoying this.

Wondering whether it is possible to see results after two months? I am really anticipating that #Flattummy guys!

Loving the fact that I can say that this has been the most challenging year yet and that I rose above it all! Failing was not an option no matter how hard it got and I MADE IT!

Marvelling at the strength and endurance you can master if you stay focused and set on the end goal! The ten thousand nervous breakdowns are a NON ISSUE!

Listening to CHAINS by Nick Jonas.

The need to hashtag everything today is REAL! 🙂

Wearing a loose maxi dress…standard dress code after gym! Loose and Comfortable.

Following Quantico has become my new favorite thing to do! I am addicted to crime and investigation series, this explains my choice of studies for my Masters. Can’t wait for the first day of class!

Noticing that today is probably the fifth time or so this whole year that I have sat in the TV room watching teli! You mean this is what the chill life looks like?

Thinking that 2016 will be a GOOOOOOOOOOD Year! My nigga I feel it! 🙂

Feeling super EXCITED that I will be done with my undergrad on FRIDAY!!! Whoop whoop…..Its been a good three and half years,a degree and a minor later, and  its about that time! #Graduatethings

I am Bookmarking all the books and articles I want to read next year!

Opening the KRA website…I finally retrieved my Pin. It’s been a whole year coming. I am actually quite embarrased that it took me that long but hey!

Giggling at all the jokes being cracked on this Baby Daddy show on 115…lol

What is your December looking like? I feel like its the perfect time to take STOCK for the whole year (Yeah I know, Captain obvious) and just reflect #Clichequeen! I have been taking a few minutes in the sauna everyday to do this and I might do a post,MIGHT!

Well anyway….I hope you get time to do the same.

Have a lovely week my readers, thank you for all the love you have shown me this year! It has been a great blogging 1 year journey! 66 posts, 1199 followers,7600 views and 3,283 visitors later! I cannot wait for many more to come!

P.S. I was going to do a blogversary post but it sucks that my blogs anniversary falls on the day just before my mothers passing anniversary and this year I couldn’t get myself to write.

ANNNNNNNYWAY, you guys have been AMAZING! THANK YOU A Million times over. I love you all!






“They say time’s supposed to heal you, but I ain done much healing”

I have probably spent close to three hours looking for pictures of  you. Going through everything I had in my archives made me realize that behind the camera is where you liked to be! You wanted to be the one to capture the moments and keep them close! But then again the “selfie” wasn’t as big in your time….lol

I found pictures though, turns out other people liked you in front of the camera and giiiiiiiiiiiirl I know why! You stunning pretty little miss thang! 🙂

Today was hard mum, i never thought it would be, but there’s something about having you as my first thought when I wake up and you remaining just that, a thought! There’s no option to call or text, there’s no planning of dates because I miss you, nothing….just a Hello from the other side 🙁

I’m sorry my “hello” came with tears but when it comes to you my tears run through uncontrollably,especially when we are out here  talking about how ” It’s been two years since…” An uncontrollable faucet…

I was absolutely unproductive today! I did nothing but stare at your pictures . Ocassionally I got distracted with the internet and its wonders but then my thoughts were quickly re-directed to you.

“Are you okay?” That had to be the hardest question I had to answer all day. How do I say yes when I mean no because im busy trying to avoid a pity party, and at the same time push back the tears at the brim of my eyelids just waiting for that trigger emotion?

It was hard, but easier than it was two years ago when I got the horrible news. Definitely easier than when I saw you wrapped up in that white linen. Much easier mum,than when I had to pay you tribute and the words were being blocked by hot tears and i really had to force myself to pull it together.Easier than when I had to let you go six feet under, alone. Much easier mum, but hard all the same.

I don’t know why you can’t be here today, I don’t know why you have to miss all my big moments, I don’t know why I don’t have the chance to tell current stories and have an ” In fact my mum said….” or “My mum was asking…”

Let me not be selfish though, I am glad PAIN is not a word in your vocabulary! That Joy, laughter and sunshine are the order of your days. I am glad that you are well. I believe that you are well.

This was me just checking in, a hello from the other side on your anniversary!

Stay well pretty,





I have finally come to terms with the fact that my mind never goes to sleep.Well at least of late.

While this may be encouraging if you were to look at it as ,say, that my dreams are so big that they are literally dripping out of my brain every second, then Yes! That I am constantly planning and strategizing all for the better thus keeping the turning wheels of my mind forever in motion, then absolutely YES! THAT, I don’t know, I am mentally doing my assignment and preparing for class the next day in my sleep, then of course YES!

But no…I mean yes… this is what goes through my brain in the wee hours of the night when my body has fully and completely shut down but my brain is fully awake. But No! Somehow, of late, I cannot seem to completely fall asleep both body and mind.

I mean, I may lay there as dead as a corpse only thing differentiating us being my breathing pattern but my mind is as awake as a bat in the night time.

So this is where my “no” comes in. I particularly do not think this is a good thing. I cannot tell you how much I look forward to going to bed only to feel like I was awake the whole night. I am particularly envious of my brother who falls completely asleep such that when you try and wake him up it is quite the struggle because that life in Lala Land is so good he doesn’t want to leave.

I have not been to Lala Land in weeks and how I long for it. Crave for it. Yearn for it.

While I did acknowledge that I was not completely and fully falling asleep, I never quite saw it as a major problem. I mean, I was tired the next day but not so much and I actually felt more productive because I had already planned everything in my mind, all that I needed to do was execute it.

Well until today, I have been in the house the whole day because I do not go to school on Wednesday’s and my task for work today was postponed. I was excited that I could finally get in a little rest during the day.

At about 2:45pm I decided to take a short siesta and set the alarm for 4pm which was quite unnecessary to tell you the truth. See I did go to sleep, “blanky” and everything but my mind would just not shut down. In that One hour and fifteen minutes I planned what I would do when I woke up, debated on whether I would make dinner or not, pondered on the situation at hand when it came to my love life, thought about the investment forum I was invited to and how unprepared I was, I even got as far as making a double mental note to think seriously about what I want to study for masters so that I can start the required processes.

ALL THE WHILE, I counted down how many more minutes I had of sleep. Somehow, I could tell how long my eyes had been shut and how many more minutes I had of “shut eye” to go. I literally spoke to my mind and asked it to shut down but no,it just kept going. And as they may have it, promptly at 3:59, even before the alarm went off, my eyes flew open and I jumbled to grab my phone before the alarm went off so that I could turn it off.

I literally scared myself. My “siesta” came and went and I did not sleep even for fifteen minutes.

WHAT IN THE HELL is wrong with me? Is this normal? All I want is to sleep! Have you experienced this before? I need help and no, not sleeping pills 🙁

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This will soon be my situation 🙁