I really have to say though, it is not been exactly 6 months. it is like 5. something, but its easier to say 6, so 6, yes? good.

So now, I mentioned earlier how each country taught me something and impacted me in a different way. I really did mean that. It was not me just trying to add to the word count of that post. lol

okay so walk with me.

Hej! Hur mar du? ( Hey! How are you?)

I have recently been getting in touch with my inner swede and throwing in phrases here and there that I remember from the classes I took has become a common thing. I think It is because It is finally hitting home that I am leaving soon and it couldn’t be more bitter sweet.

So before I go any further, I have to let you know that the next couple of posts will have very little, if at all,anything related to cancer. But I warned you guys right? Don’t be mad…. I just have a few words for this lovely continent that is Europe and I cannot up and leave without doing it word justice.

Also, I realized that my blog will be a piece that I will review in future that will take me back to the old me and I can then use it to measure how much I have grown. It will also be the platform that enables me to relive memories for old times sake or give me a nudge when I feel stuck. Tales of my travels will be something I will definitely be happy to read again and what better way to document them than Via this blog.

So, just for January allow me to bore you with my adventures in Europe. From the beautiful countries I visited, to the lovely souls I met and even those comments that we receive as Africans that leave us wondering whether the West is really aware of anything other than the West.

This is a sad blog many a times, or at least some of you have mentioned. You say it appeals to your heart and you can relate but it still doesn’t change the fact that it is sad anyway. So lets have some fun this month and forget the real bitch that cancer happens to be. Just for one month…because trust my tales on cancer are never too happy.

okay, shall we? Yes!

stay tuned .

love and love,


And so the end of the year has finally spread its wings around us. We made it, 365 days and we still here! He has been so good to us and shown us nothing but love and all we can really do is be thankful. For everything but especially so for this life.

I feel like 2014 was the year of growth for me and getting to 2015 with new skin feels really great! You know how a snake sheds? That is what I mean.

2014 started on a low for me.My mum was gone and there was no bringing her back. It is not like she took everything with her because everywhere I turned I was reminded of her. They all tried to say that it would be fine and they understood but it never seemed to get any better. They said they would be there always but a few months in it was just the four of us against death and its ugly leftovers.

Everything was so hard, from the smile I had to wear on my beautiful face (Someone made a comment about my face,seriously, people are so extra. Life is too short bruh) everyday to the fear of the dark and death that made me sleep with my lights on every night. 2014 was not looking up. My GPA dropped by 0.1 and i was devastated! I had to do my exams immediately after the burial. Do you know how hard it is to get a point 0.1?lol…especially after how I had worked my ass off for it in the previous year because I am set on graduating with honors. It was all just crumbling down on me.

But it got better, somewhere in between Prayer and good friends and the bond of family, It got better. I did not gain the weight I had lost but the rest were starting to look brighter and healthier. Dad was looking healthier. Losing your loved one is not easy and for us our bodies showed it. Soon though, we were meeting people who noticed that our faces arched better and our smiles were warmer.

And then I moved. 6 months to experience the world. It was scary….but this half year is where most of the growth took place and I can really say I have morphed into something better, someone better. I am not the me that left 5 months ago and I am not the only one noticing it. I have slowly learned to let go and let God. I have grown spiritually too. As a woman, knowing what I am worth and what I deserve, in that way also. As a sister and as a daughter. As a friend too. And for this I am ever so grateful.

They say when you travel , your perspective changes and it is like you have a set of new eyes on. Every country I visited in Europe taught me something different and I could not be more grateful. I Thank my parents profusely for this opportunity and just to let them know that what they hoped I would get out of it, I have ,that and ten times more.

I have made networks and family so close that I know I have a place to stay when I next visit France. Sweden is home now and my mum (Diana) is coming to Kenya for my graduation. Denmark is always calling and Ethiopia is my next stop over as I tick off the countries I must visit.

Also I GAINED 8kgs!!!!!! You don’t know how happy this has made me. I lost so much weight and gaining it back was such a hustle! But when you are relaxed, both body and mind. It is possible. I was about done with hearing how my butt had disappeared,lol. (pride of any African woman if you ask me!) ahhh so so happy about this one.lol

And so now we are here at the end of this year. I hope that you have had a year of growth, achievement and prosperity that has prepared you for the next one and if not then at least I hope that plans to have a better one are in place.

I believe that anything is possible. I have been afforded the opportunity to move from the impossible to the possible and I now tell you that whatever darkness is there in your life is because there is a greater light waiting to be discovered. Make peace with the dark and when you are ready, I beg of you, sought after the light because we are destined for greatness and those dark patches are only to prepare us, to give us the adequate armor.

I wish you all a prosperous and fulfilling new year. That you may make all your dreams and wishes come true and in your journey that you may remember to take a soul with you. There is strength in numbers. That you may be blessed abundantly. That you are surrounded with intense amounts of love. That in the end you will always remember to be thankful.


love and love,



So I Know I said I wouldn’t write again soon but I couldn’t help myself but get back on here on Christmas day and officially wish you a merry Christmas. *Yes all the other wishes were unofficial*

But also, It is just the Spirit that Christmas brings with it. I was set on being miserable today because I am not celebrating Christs birth with my family and that was such a downer for me. UNTIL! I woke up this morning and the sun was shinning brighter than ever. The energy I got from that is unexplainable ,but I can tell you this, it has made me pick out my finest dress and my favorite Lipstick and I am ready to have such a grand grand day in memory of Christ!!! Oh how so wonderful He is!! and mummy too…remember the sun thing?Lol

So now , officially,

I BARBARA , would love to wish you all a Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas filled with nothing but love, Joy and happiness that surpasses all bounds. That as you enjoy and make merry you may also remember the greatness of our Lord and thank him for the Wonderful year that was. That we acknowledge that we have had bad days but it is not a bad life at all. May He be truly Praised!! and then, after that, EAT EAT EAT until you” cannot “any more!!!


GOD JUL To my readers in Sweden.

I love you all,

B. xxx


Disclaimer: Enough Grammatical errors today, but hey, Its Christmas! Who is judging? #Peace