We are 14 days into the new month and this is the first time that I have gotten a minute to sit down and log into my blog in the past one month.

I have had an interesting 3 weeks with twice the workload, twice the challenge and  half the sleep. It has been an exciting ride and I am loving every minute of it.

Every day, I learn,

I learn new things about myself.

I have learned that my soul is one that is always  a searching, that challenges give me a high and that the minute I am not on that high my motivation dwindles, I stagnate.

I am currently on a high. I have a good feeling that I will be on this high for quite a while and I LIKE that.


So I Know I said I wouldn’t write again soon but I couldn’t help myself but get back on here on Christmas day and officially wish you a merry Christmas. *Yes all the other wishes were unofficial*

But also, It is just the Spirit that Christmas brings with it. I was set on being miserable today because I am not celebrating Christs birth with my family and that was such a downer for me. UNTIL! I woke up this morning and the sun was shinning brighter than ever. The energy I got from that is unexplainable ,but I can tell you this, it has made me pick out my finest dress and my favorite Lipstick and I am ready to have such a grand grand day in memory of Christ!!! Oh how so wonderful He is!! and mummy too…remember the sun thing?Lol

So now , officially,

I BARBARA , would love to wish you all a Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas filled with nothing but love, Joy and happiness that surpasses all bounds. That as you enjoy and make merry you may also remember the greatness of our Lord and thank him for the Wonderful year that was. That we acknowledge that we have had bad days but it is not a bad life at all. May He be truly Praised!! and then, after that, EAT EAT EAT until you” cannot “any more!!!


GOD JUL To my readers in Sweden.

I love you all,

B. xxx


Disclaimer: Enough Grammatical errors today, but hey, Its Christmas! Who is judging? #Peace

You don’t know how much joy it gives me to know that  I am touching someone’s life out there. That I am helping them in their healing journey as I go through mine. One stone , two birds? That people are actually taking time out of their days to read through my blog posts and you guys know how much I write, and how we ONLY have 24 hours in a day and YET you still take time. Man,you guys are the Real MVP’s!!

I haven’t been blogging too long now. I can’t even start talking about that blogging life, but when I do, ignore that stuff. I don’t know nothing yet. They say its hard and requires commitment. Okay maybe not hard, is it hard guys? At the moment I am like a new born, I do a post everyday because I am so excited. Well except the weekends, ya’ll need breathing space.( The only reason I am not doing two is because I don’t want you guys to get tired, because I write so much.oops. sorry) Darn it, i just went off topic.

Back to it… what I was saying is that I have already received messages from people who are grieving too and how much I have influenced their journey to recovery and letting go.  There is no greater joy than this, the point of this blog was for me and to help ME to recover. BUT remember I said I had a band wagon? Yeah, I was secretly hoping that I get a number of people with me and I AM!!

I SHALL keep posting guys, I promise. But now this is the time I conform to all that blogger behavior and go like ” If there is any topic you specifically want me to touch on,please leave a comment below” I am not just quoting it. I am actually asking 🙂

I might forget some things about this whole journey that you might want to hear about. Like how I dealt with something back then, how we did something back then, how it is affecting me now, expert information maybe? I can try that one too.

ANYTHING really guys, TRY ME!! * comment section below, I’m waiting 🙂 *

Hahaha, you guys We will be fine! I don’t know why I laughed at the beginning there . I guess it’s just that realization that this life is really crazy but GOD is very much present and He promises we will be fine. Plans to prosper us, to give us a hope and a future? He ain’t kidding guys. I promise 🙂

Okay then, Il be out here waiting to hear what you guys have to say and hopefully the posts following this one will be specific to some of you.

CANNOT wait. Very excited.

Also, Happy Jamhuri Day my fellow Kenyans. Have a good one 🙂

Until later then,

Love and Love,


clappingFor you my loves xx